Nowadays, I don't really go outside
I don't even like the way I look
let alone the way I feel behind
And I should probably take my medication
'Cause it's been days but I've been busy getting high
And my doctor said you'll get sick again
you can't mix these meds with
White lines
And am I happy?
Truth is, I don't really know what that means anymore

All I know is that I'd, like to be
and someday I might get there
In the meantime
I'll cry to radio head hoping my ex still cares, but
That's unlikely, he's probably having great sex
With that girl I knew was an idiot the one
with the bleached blonde hair
And I don't know it, I'll ever forgive myself
if I go ruin everything
That I'd, like to be and someday I might get there
But in the meantime, who fucking cares?

Nowadays, it's hard to feel alive
When the only way I want to live is to try and slowly die
And I should probably find a new explanation
'Cause it's been days and I'm running out of, lies
My heart it aches but as it starts to race
I can feel a taste of what its like
To be happy
When, truth is don't really know what that means anymore

But all I know is that I'd, like to be
and someday I might get there
But in the meantime
I'll cry to radio head hoping my ex still cares, but
That's unlikely, he's definitely having great sex
With that girl I knew was an idiot
the one with the bleached blonde hair
And I don't know if, I'll ever forgive
myself if I go ruin everything
That I'd, like to be and someday I might get there
But in the meantime, who fucking cares?

Who fucking cares?
Who fucking cares?
Who fucking cares? ('Cause it's definitely not me)